Cut - Plumb

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our eyes meet
I know you see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut

--> That is a song that reflects exactly my past, and the hard moments my past brings up. It's exactly what i went threw, it also shows what i need to do, what i need to move on. And I can't do that. It's killing me. And I know i'm not the only one in my case. But we're all in little bubbles. And It's hard to take. All of it. But i'm trying, i'm pushing along, sometimes i don't want to wake up, sometimes, i don't want to move because i know that it's going to be one of those days with the same constant feeling.

Ever since what happened and what i did to myself, i never did it again. Just so if anyone reads this that i stopped. I promised to my mother not to do it, i promised to myself. It's a gloomy and horrid part of my life i should not reproduce again. ever.